Life is Crazy

I really don't update anymore, but I feel like I should because I stopped keeping a diary =( and updating will at least let me know what's been going on in my life.

Over the past 3ish weeks, wayyy too much has been happening. It's kind of an INTENSE overload for me to deal with both physically and emotionally. I try not to let it get to me, and now I'm finally recuperating from all the craziness and trying to get my life back into routine and back to normal.


My new room in my on-campus apartment at UCSD. It's very comfyy.. and even cuter now because I have HelloKitty stickers all over the walls :]



Beach sesh before classes started.. mm i'm so pale :(


Cooking with my boyfriend hehee we decided to start cooking chinese food cuz it's healthier


Tastes even better than it looks!!


Random FOTD that I really liked :)


Quick dinner after one night of recruitment.. which was HELL but the results are WELL WORTH IT!!!


OUR NEW KAPPA BABIES -- Alpha Epsilon pledge class!! THEY'RE SO CUTE :D


My lovely ALPHA DELTA'S!! <333


My little, Emily!! She's such a sweetheart!


Group dinner at PF Chang's. soo delicious but EXPENSIVE! I could cook all that shit.. LOL


To be continued...

Goodbye Grandpa :(

Today was my paternal grandfather's funeral. He passed away 2 Friday's ago on September 5th. I wasn't extremely close to him because we moved away from our family to America when I was 5. Still, I saw him every summer when we visited Taiwan and he even stayed with us in the US twice for half a year each time. The last time I saw him was my second day in Taiwan this summer.. he was already sickly because he went anorexic-- 5'9 and 83 pounds. He just lost the desire to eat anything. After that, he got an ulcer, and went braindead because he lost too much blood and his weak body could not support him. He was unconscious for about a week when his wife (my grandma) and children (including my dad) decided that they would pull the plugs because there was no point surviving solely on the device if he was unconscious (the doctors said there was no hope for revival). So the decision was made and he passed away.

The funeral was a traditional Taiwanese-Buddhist ritual. It was awkward for me, my mom, and my sister because we are baptized Christians, so we don't participate in their incense-bowing/ritualistic hymns and prayers, etc. Yet at the same time, we don't want to show disrespect. We just ended up bowing when appropriate but not doing the more intense traditions.

I feel so confused over all of this. Suddenly, life seems like such a whimsical ordeal. I mean, seriously, what the hell is LIFE? What defines life? What is that little spark that distinguishes a dead body from a living one? It's just reallyyyy weird for me. And yes, this is the first personal death I've ever dealt with (the only ones being my dog and some distant people I knew). It's such a strange concept.. and I hate going to sleep alone because all I do sometimes is stay awake and ponder the meaning of life. That's when I run into my boyfriend's room and snuggle with him for a while until I feel really tired. (We're staying with my parents.. so we don't wanna get caught).

Anyways, putting aside my confusions, I'm really gonna miss my grandpa. He was always the chill one who was kind of reserved yet fun at the same time. I will always remember that the last thing he ever laughed about was my blonde hair color because he thought it was silly/funny. I really hope he's in a better place. Part of me really believes that wherever he is right now, he's much happier because towards the end of his life, I feel like he lost the will to live. Maybe I'm wrong, but when you give up food, friends, and everything else in your life, it just seems like you no longer care for life anymore. I just wish him the best of luck wherever he may be now. I think I might get a tattoo with the money he left me. It's not a lot -- just enough for a tattoo, but I'm still trying to decide if that's a "memorable" thing to do with the money. We'll see what happens.

Boys like brunettes better!!

SOOOO sick of the blonde hair omg. sick of seeing the ugly ass roots pop out a week after dying it.. and then going thru all the pain and money to get it done every monthhh. i finally got some sense in my brain and dyed it brunetteee again :) I am sooo lovin' it. It's such a pretty shade because it's not too dark but a nice soft brown.

I always used to say blondies have more fun!!! but guess what? boys like brunettes better :) Not that it matter cuz I have an amazing boyfriend.. but still hehehee..


taken right after I got it done!


AND NOW i've been really lazyyy with everything but I just wanted to post up a collection of all my past EOTDs here in taiwan. Most of them have no face makeup because it's toooo hot to wear face makeup here.. I just sweat it all off the second I step out of my 26 degree Celsius room.


First day here. I used my new MAC mineralized eyeshadow in Play on Plums.




my neutral look.


Sister's birthday


more bluee.. hmm i think i went through a blue phase. Usually I'm all about the PURPLES!!






picking up my boyfriend from the airport!!


Most recent one.. with the brunette. And also one of my favorites :)


Yayyy I'm ready for another fun day/night out in Taipei Cityyy with my lover. peeace!

What the Fuck..

Okay so I havent updated in forever because this blog is sort of pointless to me now.. I started it just for fun but then I'm not good with HTML/computer stuff, updating with interesting topics and all that jazz so I sort of abandoned it. Also, my comments don't even work so I don't get feedback or whatever.. so unnnlegit so I just gave up HAHA.

Now, I'm just gonna use this as a sort of ranting place for myself I guess.. It's too hard to keep up with the world of beauty blogging haha.

So basically, there's a fucking bitch who I absolutely despise. We used to be super close friends (she was my suitemate last year) but then she started doing soo many shady things that it became untolerable. She would randomly get mad at me and my friends, and put up post-its about how we're using her and shit.. and she'll get mad if we don't do everything according to her plans.. it's like no, bitch, we have fucking friends outside of YOU. This bitch went so far as to read my fucking DIARY on my computer and that was absolutely the last straw for me. I completely stopped talking to her, but never once did I cuss her out or anything, because I hate drama and I really stay away from shit like that. I just began to ignore her and like forget her you know? NOWW, another friend just told me that she suspects that this bitch has been logging into our facebook accounts.. we had been messaging each other about this bitch's nails (long story) and the bitch totally posted up a picture like explaining her nails or whatever. WAYYY too much of a coincidence.. so we guess that she got access into our accounts. We also both got logged out of our facebooks.. so that's pretty much another sign.

THE WORST PART OF ALL THIS?! SHE'S LIVING WITH US NEXT YEAR!!! (LONNNGGGGG story.. but it can't be changed.. sadly.) We'll have to put up with this shit for another fucking school year which is just.. almost impossible because she practically ruined our first year of college for us with all her nonsense and retarded shananigans. I'll have to move in with her (same apartment) in oneeee week.. so we'll see how it goes. I'm just so pissed that she's invaded my privacy not only ONCE, but now TWICE. What the fuck.. this bitch needs to be kept in line.


Onto more positive things, I'm still in Taiwan :) 4 days moreeee till I get back to sunny Californiaaaa!!! WOOo!! I still have so many things to show my boyfriend around Taipei Cityyy.. we were kinda stuck in the house for the weekend cuz there was a typhooon :( So depressing. Butttt, it's pretty much done now, so we'll be out and about again later on tonight!!

Everything Squished in One Post.. Again.

I tend to do that a lot-- not update for a while and then squeeze everythiiing into one entry.. Geez.


Just a quick update before the pictures start.
Taiwan is fabulous :] Our new place is so adorable -- very contemporary and new looking! It has high ceilings, which is rare for Taiwan houses, so that's pretty cool. Only drawback is that it's kinda far away from "civilization". It's a good 40 minutes away from my old house, which was right next to 3 boba shops, sogo shopping mall, the metro station, a market, and a ton of other stuff I came to associate with "Taiwan". It's been 4 days since I got here, and I haven't even been to any of those places yet :( Soon, though.. hopefully.
I visited my sister's new school 2 days ago! It's very.. yellow. And all the kids there speak english so it's pretty tight I guess. And there's a Cold Stone right near it.. :] I'm such a fattie.
I'm still trying to get over jet lag and whatnot.. ughh. And it's still hot and humid.. but it's okay. I finally get to relax and chill.. which is a first this summer because I had been working and going to classes and shit. So this is nice :]

Now, onto my jumble of randommm pics :] Yay..

EOTD#1 -- Airplane Day



I'm pretty sure I used only my Coastal Scents 88 Ultra Shimmer Palette for this look. It looks very silver-y in the pictures, but in real life it wasn't as.. "shiny".

My Nails

Sweetheart Pink from Ulta. I love it.

One-product Haul from the Duty-Free Airport Store:

MAC Mineralized Eyeshadow Duo in Play on Plums.
Yes, I know I should've gotten wayyy more.. but considering how broke I am and how little time I had left that day, I've decided to just get one little thing every time and build up my collection that way. I really loveee this color though. It's a purple/brown burgundy with a soft pink duo. Soo pretty.. I'm in love :]

EOTD #2 -- Out to lunch with my mom :]



This was done with my new MAC Mineralized Eyeshadow.. I used both colors and did the burgundy with a wet brush..

EOTD #3 -- Exploring our Neighborhood & Picking up my Sister





What if I cut my hair this short.. Haha (My boyfriend would kill me!!)


Sooo long right now..!!


And that will be all!! So many things crammed together.. haha. I need to start being more organized and make different things separate posts. Rawr.

Can't wait for my baby to get here!! <33